Have you ever been so mad you ripped your own arm off?
(Source: iraffiruse, via lmaogtfo)
(Source: fashionsociety)
You and I.
Change doesn’t happen over night, I know. I want to erase everything that reminds me of you because that’s how hard I fell in love. I still love you, but maybe I shouldn’t anymore.
The way I see it, you’ve given up. I hope you tell me I’m wrong.
My heart grows Heavy
I’m sad. I’m angry. I’m frustrated. I’m confused. I’m in love.
I’m very slowly learning to be alone. I can’t say that I like it, but I think I’m rebuilding some part of the independence I had when I was in highschool, that no love relationship needed independence- that-i-don’t-need-nobody-stubborn-independence. I remember seeing couples in highschool and envying it so badly that I did some reverse psych shit on myself to think of highschool couples as something that would hold me back, make my life worse in a sense so that i would stay away from it, and so that I could focus on my academic goals. And that I did.
But give me a year into college, following my ambitions and taking up as many opportunities to socialize and build relationships with people, some of which I, to this day, hold dear: and I had fallen in love.
I took that risk that a lot of those songwriters and composers talk about in their music. That risk of letting your guard down and making yourself vulnerable so that you could experience this feeling/thing/whatever-it-is called love. And…..*refer to first & second lines above*
As much I like to say that I prefer the simple things in life, I’m learning that love is unfortunately not a simple thing.
Mutualism
i always tell him i don’t care anymore, but I still do.
he doesn’t do the same things for me anymore, but I still do.
i’ve been hurting, and it still does.
just one of those nights i’ll cry myself to sleep, i’ll wake up, and i’ll be just fine in the morning </3
Guide me
Lord, I try not to ask for much because I want to have consideration for other prayers. But there’s a missing aspect of my life that I really want and need. I promise to work hard for it. I’ll never give in and I will not be afraid. I will be persistent and patient even when it seems impossible and out of my reach. I want to help people. I want to be able to provide both for myself and the people I hold dearly in my life. I’m driven by the fear of failure and the want for success, and I’m ready and willing for the sweat, tears, and blood that may come with this. You’ve gotten me this far, Lord. So I’m asking again, please guide me.
